again and again, the arrows pointed to the same place: the answers i was searching for were in the place i had avoided most - my body.
my personal experience with anxiety, disordered eating, overthinking and constant tension has led me to this work. i grew up sensitive and empathic and for years i saw those qualities, along with my body itself, as things to overcome rather than understand.
it wasn’t a conscious decision, but i abandoned my body, dissociated from it as best as i could and learned to live mostly from my head.
however, this approach and attempt at control mostly deepened these patterns.
by the time I was in my mid 20’s i had a certificate in tourism and was circling in a loop of working late nights in restaurants and traveling with zero idea of my direction in life, while i watched my friends follow paths that seemed much more on track.
i was living in toronto and had assumed that success and fulfillment was in this big, cool city. but it amplified my sense of aloneness and disconnection and i only felt sad, even more anxious and lost. finally, after a year of attempting life in the city, i heard about an organic farm in costa rica and left within a month.
it was there that i took my first yoga class under a thatched roof during a rain storm. it was the most uncomfortable, sticky, awkward class and while i was moving through it, i concluded that yoga was not for me. but as i was leaving i felt, for the first time in a long time, so calm, relaxed and light.
i landed a job on another biodynamic farm and stayed for a year. there was no wifi so i practiced poses and breathing exercises from books that i found along the way. i revelled in the many ways i was benefiting from this practice.
living on the tropical farm, being surrounded by nature, along with preparing the fresh organic food in a communal kitchen, softened my control - or lack of control - around eating and food. i was living in a way that was more aligned with me, so instead of running away from myself, i was learning to inhabit my body and who i was.
that experience set me on a new trajectory. back in ontario, i enrolled in yoga teacher training and after completing it, followed my heart to vancouver where i eventually registered to become a holistic nutritionist and a practitioner of eating psychology.
these were years of finding myself, spending a lot of time in nature, following the things that interested me and living a life that felt aligned to who i am rather than who i thought i should be. again and again, the arrows pointed to the same place: the answers i was searching for were in the place I had avoided most - my body.
i now live with my husband and two kids in north vancouver, where i teach classes from my home space. i am innately a sensitive soul and still manage feelings of anxiety daily. but the foundation i have built over the years of nature, people, and practices, along with living a life more aligned with who i am provides a support i need to move through difficult moments or days.
i don’t normally cope with life or anxiety through using food anymore which is a lovely relief for my self and my body.
now i am most committed and passionate about creating opportunities and spaces for others to come home to themselves. to allow time and space to move from our mind to our hearts. many of us have unconsciously disconnected from our body, our feelings and ourselves - but this is also where all the magic lives, our intuition, our inspiration our guidance system.
i hope to bring more lost souls home to where they are happiest, in their own body.